[It's not so much that as he doesn't want anyone else to see him so bothered.]
That they don't go in order. If they were gonna do it like that, I should've just got the end instead of going back to the middle. [What he presumes was the middle, at least. Maybe it was actually the beginning?] I get the feeling that the end was supposed to be satisfying, but it's not knowing what happened before it.
Like killing him wasn't good enough.
[Which is scary. Shikamaru can barely be motivated to hold a grudge, most days. Hating a person that much, or even attacking them with the intent to kill... it's not something he thought he'd be capable of, ninja or not.]
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That they don't go in order. If they were gonna do it like that, I should've just got the end instead of going back to the middle. [What he presumes was the middle, at least. Maybe it was actually the beginning?] I get the feeling that the end was supposed to be satisfying, but it's not knowing what happened before it.
Like killing him wasn't good enough.
[Which is scary. Shikamaru can barely be motivated to hold a grudge, most days. Hating a person that much, or even attacking them with the intent to kill... it's not something he thought he'd be capable of, ninja or not.]