It seems you are conflicted about what is more important- protecting those you care about or doing right with all your actions. And that may well be the reason for your original question.

How about a hypothetical situation to help with it. The person you most care about is in danger and you have to do something you know very much is wrong and would never do normally or this person would die. There is no other option to save this person's life. You either must commit an act you feel is evil or the person dies.

[Of course Leonhardt is keeping quiet that he was put in this exact situation, and he chose the loved one, and sometimes he wonders if it would have been better to choose to do right. Though he knows very well that had he chosen that route, both of them would likely not be alive today.]