[And she looks down because... this is hard, and weird, and because she's not a little ashamed to be in this position, where she's hurting a friend.]
I know that he wouldn't mind if I came by - he'd want it, even. But he keeps trying to change my mind. [My heart...] And... he's got that right. He's my friend, I wouldn't want to tell him that he can't try to... [gah, so awkward and painful and embarrassing] win me over.
But I don't want to be [and there is the slightest inflection on her words to show that they're not entirely hers] keeping him around or giving him false hope. And even if I'm trying to stay open, I hate having to turn him down and I don't want to set myself up - set either of us up - for more of that.
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[And she looks down because... this is hard, and weird, and because she's not a little ashamed to be in this position, where she's hurting a friend.]
I know that he wouldn't mind if I came by - he'd want it, even. But he keeps trying to change my mind. [My heart...] And... he's got that right. He's my friend, I wouldn't want to tell him that he can't try to... [gah, so awkward and painful and embarrassing] win me over.
But I don't want to be [and there is the slightest inflection on her words to show that they're not entirely hers] keeping him around or giving him false hope. And even if I'm trying to stay open, I hate having to turn him down and I don't want to set myself up - set either of us up - for more of that.